And when the nice, armed, unseen, stealth Limo came to get YOUR NEIGHBOR in the middle of the night or day to STRIP YOU NAKED of anything and everything that ever made you or makes YOU, WHAT’S LEFT of it IN YOU  HU-man!!!!!  

 

Except for your Breathing and Heart BEating and Eyes Seeing - Family and Friends Ties Tying and

 

That’s IT!

 

Nothing else even exists!  This is it!

 

For this teany unimportant STUFF is ALL!  The ONLY thing!  Not even some DIGNITY nor RESPECT, no!, BABY!  they have daily naked beatings and rapings for you instead!

 

For what’s left over after they take away everything everything everything that can be taken away except for your perception!  You don’t even have your body, it belongs to them to beat and rape it over and over and over and to do scientific experiments with.  All you are left, all you have left is a mind, shredds of minds and thoughts left over to perceive and watch this HAPPENING TO YOU.

 

And for these shredds of what used to be a mind and thought just perceiving and watching, ....

 

no more, not anymore WORDS ELUDING AND SLIPPING AWAY, GETTING NEW MEANINGS AND LOOSING ALL MEANINGS, ALL AT THE SAME TIME, for these left over scraps/shreds/left-overs of something-S, not even wanting to! but perceiveing-S!

 

YOU!

 

Managed to get yourself beat up and your body owned by someone else and raped and raped and scientificed upon, and still! somehow! YOU! managed! for SIX years, day, upon a day, upon a night, upon a day,

 

NOT TO JUST TAKE A LAST BREATH and smoke your last cigarette AND JUST CROAK!

 

Croak Yourself the HELL OUTTA THERE!

 

WHY?  WHY? WHY?  HOW?

 

Don’t tell me?  It could not have been just so, just so you may TO SEE the sunshine?  and the rain?  and the moonshine? and MAYBE??! make EYE CONTACT, to see just one more LAST TIME your BELOVED?  Maybe, cause you get this bad feeling the SMOKE said hello and one last good bye to YOU last WEEK, you don’t know what a week is, you COULD CARE LESS ABOUT time!!!!!  Time is the only thing getting you out of there if you don’t croak yourself first and this stupid Time thing is going VERY VERY SLOWLY EVERY SECOND TAKES WHAT BACK IN THE ‘FREEDOM’ SEEMED TO BE MEASURED AS SOMETHING LIKE AN HOUR OR A WHOLE DAY!!!!

 

And you don’t even know, in fact you suspect very strongly you wount and still you don’t just croak yourself the HELL OUT-TA THERE!  On the very unlikely OFF-CHANCE that you MIGHT!!!!!  SEE YOUR BELOVED!!!!

 

Look!  Look! at the Stars!

 

When you have nobody and nothing in the World just EMPTINESS  and stone cold SILENCE in your EARS and HEART and  WOUMB.

 

The STARS!      The silly little stupid beautiful expanding STARS!

and the CLEAR CLEAN

MOUNTAIN OR OCEAN

AIR!

give!

  you!

your last!

and least!

and ONLY!

reason!

to keep breathing and to         stay             HERE

 

take     one    another    breath       and        stay

 

a simple     only     one    look       at a      night         street        ocean       beach              at        the

      STARS

 

MAN

 

A Real M.A.N.

 

beside me, next to me, behind me, in front of me, holding my hand, my heart, my woumb in

HIS

hands        heart         body      MIND...

 

Yes!        I     want    to     L.I.V.E      !

 

and Breathe!  and      look     at the       stars      and

 

Love         Love        Love        Worship

 GIVE     it     All

Anything and Everything and

All Ways

TO

My

Beloved